Tuesday, February 9, 2010

1st School day on Meds

Today was Youngest's first school day on meds for his ADHD and I sit here with tears in my eyes and a lump in my throat.  He was almost a totally different child.  I'm not sure that he has noticed yet, but today the only tears are the ones in my eyes.  Did he sit completely still in his chair or not fidget?  Not in the least, but that is not what we need.  His fidgeting  was diminished and he actually finished school 1 1/2 hours ahead of when he normally does.  He was able to concentrate on his reading, comprehend and restate what he had read, discussed with me, and made it through math in 30 minutes after the lesson was taught. When he got a few problems wrong, he didn't break out in tears, but calmly explained why he put that answer and we were able to work through the problem.  There were no fits of anger in not being able to express an idea or the pressure to get it perfect... **sigh** Thank you Father, for a good day with Youngest!

Just the other night he came to me with tears flooding his eyes.  He said he thought he "had lost my Faith because I make bad choices, get into trouble so much, and argue. Mom, I don't know what's wrong!"  It just broke my heart. 

I know that we will have rough days and we will have good days. It would unrealistic and put undo pressure on Youngest to expect all to be perfect or that this is a "magic" fix.  Today is a day filled with hope and joy for this child that I love and desperately want to succeed and feel confident in himself. Today we were surrounded by prayer and we so much needed a day like today.  It was like a breath of fresh air - life giving breath from Him.

Jeremiah 29:11 (New American Standard Bible)

 For I know the plans that I have for you,' declares the LORD, 'plans for welfare and not for calamity to give you a future and a hope.

I know there are many people that have been praying for him and us.  Thank you so much!  Today was a good day and he walked away from school with a smile. I especially want to thank Raine and Michelle for their prayers - they mean so much to me. You have encouraged me greatly. 


Raine wrote:  "Lord, connect everything in Youngest's brain the way it is supposed to be so that he has clarity of thought, organization, good memory, and strong learning ability. "May the Lord give you understanding in all things" (2 Timothy 2:7) Lord, enable Youngest to experience the joy of learning more about You and Your world. Amen"

2 comments:

Alexis said...

It's SO hard trusting that we're doing the right thing for our kids. I truly believe that one of God's biggest miracles is giving us doctors and medicine.

I can relate to similar struggles with one of my boys. He went through every single test imaginable last year, and still we have no real direction on how to help him. Apparently it's a "processing" thing (his internal computer runs slower than most!) even though he's very smart. Let me tell ya, homework takes FOR.EVER and it's incredibly difficult to get him to focus. In a way, I sometimes wish there was some medication that could help - so I'm really happy that you are seeing results!

Thanks for stopping by my blog today :)

Mom2three said...

Alexis,

I hear you on the school work thing and sympathize your frustration. Youngest struggles so much with focusing on the matter at hand. We tried vitamins, Mt. Dew... we were worn out from the stress and the struggles. We tried putting one of those display boards around him to block off distractions, his mind goes in a 100 different directions at once. At night we do give him melatonin to help his brain rest so he can sleep. While we know it's not a "magic" solution, it is working at this time and leaving him less frustrated and more able to function.

I must say that through all we've gone through with Youngest, we have learned each step of the way. It is not a life that we originally imagined - heart defects, years of therapy, ADHD, and in the midst of all that add an exceptional mind that we must challenge educationally!