Yesterday was a rough day, but it wasn't all terrible. I'm fully convinced there is too much drama given to Youngest, just one child! I'm certain that if he were a girl, he would be going through PMS.
I'm sure you don't want to know the whole story and detail, but it's going to be a long 7 years for us! We would appreciate your prayers for this child. He told me yesterday, that I didn't love him and he wasn't sure why he was here. I told him he was right, we fought to keep him alive when he was born, spent 6 years in therapy (OT,PT, speech)for him not me, and countless nights up because we didn't love him... grrr! Yes, I know, I popped off the first thing that came to my mind. I tried to be using an even, controlled tone, but my mind was racing wild with things it wanted to say.
Job 33:2 I am about to open my mouth; my words are on the tip of my tongue.
Job 27:4 my lips will not speak wickedness, and my tongue will utter no deceit.
Psalm 52:4 You love every harmful word, O you deceitful tongue!
As a Mom, I want to use words and be encouraging with my kids, to make the punishment fit the "crime," but sometimes I struggle with him. If I had a dozen kids (today, I'm thankful I don't), I know they would each be different. I don't want to squelch his spirit or change who God made him to be. He is energetic, vocal, imaginative, passionate, loving, sensative. He is Youngest and I know God allowed him live because He has a mighty purpose for his life. Sometimes getting from point A to the next is hard.
What I did: I put on some old Psalty music yesterday and had him start cleaning - bathroom, and vacuuming, while I worked on dinner. You would have thought the world caved in! I just left him to his dramatics. If I'd had my old Donut Man tapes, I would have used them. He's lost privileges: TV, computer, playing on anyone's phone...
I shake my head in wonder... Have you had a rough day? Is God working on your through a situation? Now, if you'll excuse me, I have to supervise the dusting of the china cabinet and make some pizza dough for dinner tonight, and while I'm at it, I'm going to look for my super woman cape cause I'm going to need it!