Tuesday, January 12, 2010

God knows better than I

Last night I lay awake thinking of the kids.  It's not as if this were the first time this has happened, but this time I pondered God God has in store for them and how He has been working in their lives and I'm thinking I had more than a few things wrong!

Oldest came home yesterday from school excited... Okay this rarely happens - Come to think of it, I can't remember the last time I saw him excited after coming home from school.  He is so excited about returning to Belize for another Mission Trip the first of August! Talking about when they would go and what they would do.  He even talked to his band director (they start practicing early - sometimes in July) and got his okay!  He's looking at colleges, thinking of life ahead and my heart trembles at the thought of him walking out that door... I know God has great plans for him.
  Oh God, keep working on my little boys heart, capture it, guide him, nudge him, and mold him to be a man after Your heart, a Warrior for You. Reveal Yourself to him - your plans for him...

Only is turning 16 this Friday.  Time has flown by far quicker than I ever imagined.  She is the more than I ever imagined I would ever have in a daughter. She is mature beyond where I was at her age, a helper.  She has an eye for arranging things and making them beautiful, she sees a need and sets about to help out.  I love having her with me and yet my heart trembles at the thought of her walking out that door.  I know God has great plans for her.

Oh God, Only is is so special to me, because she is my only girl, but yet, she is such a tremendous gift to us.  Thank you for lending her to us.  Guide her, capture her heart, show her how to be a young Woman who continually seeks after you.  Reveal Your plans to her... Let her not be anxious. We give her to You...

Youngest is eleven now and so full of energy - so much more than I ever have.  His mind is a constant whirl wind of ideas, thoughts.  He has a heart for adventure!   He fills our lives with wonder.  Oh this son that we almost lost... I know God has great plans for him.

Oh God, keep working on Youngest's heart, guide him, nudge him, and mold him to be a man after Your heart, an Adventurer for You. Keep his heart strong in your Word. Reveal Yourself to him - your plans for him... 

Come to think of it, why did I lose sleep over the kids!  God has them right where He needs them and they are His!  

4 comments:

Lorie said...

Great Post....you're right. God takes care of his children. You are blessed that He lent them to you.

Raine said...

Thanks for sharing your thoughts. You're a great Mommy! :)

Flourchild said...

What a amazing loving mom you are. Our kids are all most exactly the same as far as age! My daughter is turning 17 in Feb.(shes the oldest). My other daughter just turned 16 and my baby boy is 12 !! I so feel your heart when you say your not looking fwd to them walking out the door. My heart breaks everytime I think of it. But then Im so excited to see what God has in store for them. I pray for them and wake up in the night thinking about them too. Motherhood is wonderful but full of worry and heartache too!

Flourchild said...

Im going to ask you to be my friend on Facebook. I go By Michelle Murphy Muse if you see a friend invite! I would love to keep in touch more..Facebook is so nice!